Changes

I can't believe this year is already over. I guess I should be happy but this new year only reminds me of so many things I have to change and confront. Only a few more months till graduation. Though I am looking forward to going to college I'm dreading the day that I will no longer be called a student at Grace. It seems that with every problem I conquer another one steps in line just waiting for the day that I can confront it. As of now it's my shyness that seems like my enemy. I don't like being shy, not being able to talk to people, never knowing what to say, I can't stand that. For awhile now I've been trying to look people in the eye as I talk to them and try to be more outgoing. But sometimes I forget, and settle back into myself and get quiet again. Its something I feel I can't help but doing but on the other hand feel like my shyness is hurting things more than it is helping.
Another thing on my mind is Grace. I love Grace (the church) as much as I love the school. Grace is a place where I can rest, be sorrounded with the sounds and people I love and listen to His Word. Sometimes Im unsure of things in my life, but this is the one thing I know down to the core, that Grace is where God wants me to be. It just gets me thinking about what kind of church I will go to after college. I may stay in florida but want so bad to come back to Grace. If the church changes over the years that I'll be gone, i know I would look for a church like how Grace is now. Everything about Grace, especially the music, puts me in my "happy place", a place of quiet euphoria where all troubles are gone, hope is renewed and I can just rest in its peace. Sometimes at church I look around at everyone and wonder if I'm the only one who feels this way. I don't think I am but I know that I'm thankful for every sunday and wednesday I can go there and feel free.

A Spectacularly Busy Day

Yesterday I took the ACT's. The English was easy but the rest of the stuff was well....I guess I'll find out how I did in a few weeks.

Yesterday was also Christmas Spectacular at Grace. I did puppets, it was really fun even though I messed up. Everything seemed different to me though. I had just come from doing the ACT's and it was again one of those moments that I could feel time passing me by with college not too far away. But I enjoyed every moment I had just standing there talking or goofing off with friends. They have no idea how a simple smile or joke lights up my heart, but it does and Im so thankful to have these people in my life who do so.

RAndoM LiFE=ranDom ThoUgHtS

There are so many thoughts running through my mind right now.

Prayer Requests

Please pray for my parents salvation and college decisions I have to make. Please pray that I'm able to get a job during the Christmas break. Pray for family situations and that everything will come together smoothly for the Christmas play. Pray that it will snow ( i have to put that one in there for fun)! Pray that we will be able to study and do well on our exams within these next two weeks. Pray for my friends Monica n Jeff, pray for the bus ministry and the bus workers.

Just thoughts....

Why do people have to change? Im not saying change for the bad but I mean when someone changes into someone different that you can't recognize any more as being one of the closest people in your life. Why? Mom has always said that they're just growing up but i guess i just don't get that, how someone has to become someone else to become an "adult"......................

boy am i tired