The past week was revival at Grace and many decisions were made. God showed me so much about things I had denied and struggled with for a long time. I got rid of idols that were taking the place of my devotions. Even if you could call them devotions. I read the Bible, and yes you should and must start somewhere, but I didn't really apply what I learned from His Word. Throughout the day I took into account what I had read but never sought to know how to learn from situations in the Bible to help me with the situations in my life.
After spending more time in His Word I've noticed a change in me. As I see His truth, I can't help but discern everything around me as either being for Him or against Him. Yes I judge others but first judge myself; do I have the beam out of my eye? Its almost like delving into something so pure and then seeing something vile and disgusting. As I look into His Word I can't help but get disgusted at the things I do. The things I feel I can't help, piled upon the things I can that I am trying so hard to move myself. But I can't, I know I can't. After seeing how foul things truely are its so much easier to see how there is a great discernment between good and evil. How pure and transparent He is and yet He must deal with the sinful people of this earth. Jesus didn't persecute the woman about to be stoned to death. What an example, so different from the anger and frustration that builds up when sin is so evident to me. But He has to deal with me like no one else does and He is the only one who knows how to get rid of these stains in my life. To be honest I truely thought Jeff was going over the deep end when he wrote his post "Lord, pardon my life" but now I understand the view from which he wrote. Yet though things can be so cruel and seemingly bleek in life sometimes He is always there, perfect, unchanged, unwavering.
My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;
Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience.
But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.
For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord.
James 1:2-7
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